i just advance searched your @’s to me to make a zine.
i just flinched because i made my hand squish *me* via shadow made from my phone's light.
i'm having skittles for breakfast.
if you want to hangout, meet me at the wathba prison.
earl grey tea & emotional auditions in shows i'll never understand.
my too awake VNs are as awful as my half asleep ones.
i secretly want the fly & the mosquito in my room to smooch whilst tracking out mcdonalds delivery.
honey butter biscuits, chai & major life choices.
that odd state of being hungry, sleepy, sad, & angry all mushed together. i'll just drink water & hope it fades.
can’t wait to tell my doctor that i had cold instant ramen at 12:12 am whilst watching the office in my neon pink wig.
lil joys: cheese on toast and chai.
seriously just want to go home, have sushi while playing uncharted.
first thing i look up to when i wake up is sleeping again.
so in SOMA i had to help a woman die so i can get power to move my shuttle and i started crying.
i watched the office's garage sale episode and i'm not ok but i'm also ok a lot
no offense but with every fucking rejection, i'm learning something completely new. next rejection, adobe illustrator.
productive for one day of the month & sleeping for the rest.
sometimes a good day is all about finding the shade of lipstick you’ve been imagining for quite some time.
earl grey and frustration. miley, whats good.
took some sleeping pills & rewatching the office.
drove a friend to the mall to get an xbox game & i'm wearing a jalabiya, praying scarf, zero make up & almost zero petrol.
i just bought lipstick instead of cleaning my desk.
adding more heaviness to my heart by reading pessoa because what's the point anymore. this is our reality.
a doctor saw a form i filled out and said nice handwriting.
i'm supposed to be working but my desk is a mess i can't deal with so i'll nap instead.
feeling: waking up to zaatar manaqeesh and coffee.
drinking redbull and watching people see color for the first time.
i’ve also been watching people make ramen for the past 3 hours.
I know I would never kill myself but I'm just so ready to not be alive anymore, yaknow.